Sermons on the Subtleties of Love and Hate, Track 12: "You All Around"

This is the last song from my debut EP "Sermons on the Subtleties of Love and Hate". It was recorded on a tape a few summers ago so the recording quality isn't dynamite, but I have always liked it because the lyrics were improvised as I strummed some chords. At the time I was going through a rough patch in a relationship and that theme dominated the ramblings spewing forth from my mouth that night. I particularly dig the line(s) about Suburbia. It's part my feelings on the institution that is Suburban living, and part a subtle homage to my friends in the now-defunct Willoughby, Ohio punk band "The Disgustings", who penned a song entitled "Suburbia" that was definitely my favorite. Even though it was improvised during a rough time, it still brings back great memories every time I hear it.

12.) You All Around

You think that this was gonna be a happy song. You were wrong, you were wrong. Think our ending would turn out for the…the better. Settle down somewhere in the woods, just you and me. Listen to the howling of the wolves, and walk down and look at the sea of stars. Sometimes I feel like I’m falling apart, you’re so far away. Do your goals really line up with true happiness? This is not a time for you to be indecisive. Once you let it go, you never know. It might be gone for good, the wounds might be too deep to repair. So think twice, think hard. Make sure you don’t want me anymore. Before you close this chapter in your life, I’ll close it for you. It’s hard to reduce this hate I feel, not towards you, and not towards me. It’s about the way we’ve set our dreams all up bounded by the fences of Suburbia. This is not what I want for you. This is not what I want for me. This is never what I wanted myself to turn out to be. I don’t know where to go, where I’ll find you next. When I look around, that’s where you’ll be. But probably not. Just go away.